Free

I've been going through a trip lately, long and painful... my own journey to freedom.

I am struggling to free myself, free myself from fear, from inhibitions, from stereotypes, from hatred, from every negative feeling or thought that stands between me and myself.

I want to explore the inner me, the one that was there before to get infected by all the sickness of this world. I want to meet the genuine me, how would I think, who I would I be if I was free of all strings attaching me to the filthy ground...

Emancipate myself from fear, fear is always around the corner. Fear of the unknown, fear of those who control my life, my thoughts... We've been well taught how to auto-censor ourselves, how to avoid thinking, how to accept a distorted reality that it's impossible to stand...

Learn to free my mind from the society around me, and all its hidden catches, all the strange looks when you express something different or act differently. All the judgments, all the ironic comments, the surrounding conformism, the narrow minded people...

Remove all inhibitions, sins, explore the world as if there were no consequences: no punishments, no hell...

Pinch myself every time I'm having a nasty thought about a different person, just because this person is different...

I want to get rid of these feelings, I want to love mankind just as it is, diversified and different... destroy all thoughts presuming that THEY are different, that THEY are weird, that THEY are evil...

We are all weird, we all have our unique differences that make us uncivilized and strange, aliens to the eyes of some other people.No matter who you are, no matter where you coming from there will be always someone thinking that you are fucked up... so why don't we accept these differences as particularities interesting to explore, instead of turning your head and mumbling: pfff those !@$#$%

I am trying to make the little free spot in my mind bigger, I figured out it was very small. I finally understood that I am a prisoner of my own mind... I want to dig into it and see where it's gonna take me... and from there come back to the world...

hopefully as a free man...
A.